And up until now, I am still wondering what if I took all the chances that I’ve got before. Would I be happy now? Or things would still be the same. Or things could have been worse. I don’t know.
Sana one day, mabasa mo rin tong blog ko at yung mga posts ko tungkol sayo. Tapos marerealize mong “Shit! Grabe pala siya. Sobra-sobra pala niya akong minahal dati. At di ko man lang siya pinahalagahan nung mga panahon na yun.:( “ Yung tipong pagsisisihan mong pinakawalan mo ko. Na sinayang mo yung TAYO. Pero dahil late mo nang narealize ang lahat, wala na ring chance. Masaya na ko sa panahon na yun. Masaya na ko sa piling ng iba.
I am not that type of girl that a guy wants to be with. I am not beautiful like any other girls. I am so skinny. I tend to be awkward around people. I tend to be so shy. I get so speechless unless you put up a topic. I am so boring to be with. I am such a pessimist. I easily get depressed and frustrated. I am extremely sensitive to negative criticisms. And I rarely get compliments. I know, I am such a mess. Sorry but I don’t have much to offer. Nothing to be much proud of. All I know is that once that we’re together, I assure my loyalty and faithfulness to you. I assure you that you’re the only one that I’m gonna love for the rest of forever.
Mag-iisang linggo na yung piercing ko pero hindi pa rin ata alam ng mga tao dito bahay. Haha. Di ko sure kung napapansin na nila to pero di lang nila sinasabi. Madalas na kasing nakalugay hair ko kahit na sabog or kapag nakatali naman, nakabagsak naman yung bangs ko na nagtatakip sa piercing ko. Basta si Mama pa lang nakakaalam. Ewan ko sa lola ko. Hahaha. Pero realtalk, hindi ako satisfied sa piercing ko. Feeling ko di naman bagay sakin. Panget kasi nung earring tsaka kulay eh :(
I really thought you were the most amazing guy ever. But then, I’ve realized that I was wrong. Well actually, you were the one who proved me that I was wrong. Back then, I really thought that you were perfect like you’re the guy that every girl dreams to be with. You were such a perfect guy in my eyes. I’ve never seen your imperfections. Maybe that’s what it is. When you’re really in love with someone, you’re too blind to see their flaws and imperfections.
It sucks to be ugly. Well let’s just accept the fact that we live in a society where looks does really matter. If you’re ugly, people won’t like you. If you’re ugly, people won’t dare to know the real you. Let us not be a hypocrite but of course, people will tend to look at your outer beauty first. And if you’re not beautiful or if you didn’t capture their eyes and their attention, they won’t even dare to get to know you better. But that’s how our society works. It sucks to be ugly. It sucks to be one.
Naiistress na naman ako. Ayoko ng gantong feeling eh. Badtrip! Ayoko na talagang maging officer. Nakakastress. Feeling ko nasakin ang sisi eh. Putangina. Dagdag pa tong antok ko. 9pm pa lang pero antok na antok na ko. Punyeta talaga. Sana maayos tong problema na to bukas. Fuckshit
"Eh kasi yung pinapakita mo sakin, yung mga pinaparamdam mo sakin, yung mga sinasabi mo sakin. Eh kasi pinaramdam mong espesyal ako eh"
Shet na MMK yan nakarelate ako sa linyang yan. Huhu
Mahirap naman talagang hindi umasa kapag pinaparamdam niya sayo na gusto ka rin niya. Tipong pinaparamdam niya sayo araw araw na sobrang halaga mo sa buhay niya, ginagawa halos ang mga bagay na pwede lang sa mag-syota. Mahirap lalo na kung sinasanay ka niya, mahirap na hindi ma-fall, mahirap pigilan ang feelings. Mahirap talaga.